Terrible quality phone pictures diary

 It's been a great week:) Here's a little documentation.

 The dream team of couples finally sealed the deal. I could not love these kids more. They are perfect for each other. We've been friends for a while and I'm so happy it's lasted, as the two guys were originally missionaries friends. You could say I kept the kids in the divorce;) Such a beautiful wedding. I can't rave enough about it. So much love in the air <3 br="">

 My friend designed these ski's and then won the vote and got them made in real life for free! He's just that kind of guy. So cool

 Here are those love birds. Eric should have warned me he was gonna be cute so i could have gotten a better picture. all well. darling

 My favorite outfit of the last week.  Yellow!

I'll have you know this look helped me get the hottest date at our ward dating game. I'm sure it was the orange lipstick. Ha....yeah no the boys were probably just blinded by all my color.

 Finally made it out to the new Trader Joe's in SLC. If ever there was a hipster grocery, this would be it. All things organic and wholesome and natural I could die. And of course I go first for the cookie butter. Literally cookies made into a peanut butter consistency. This blows nutella out of the competition. Put it on everything, and enjoy the trip to sweet, ambrosia heaven.

 My cousin is a producer and just signed this kid, Caleb Blood. Don't let his punk look fool you, his style is reminiscent of N'Sync. Haha, but don't let that scare you away. He really was absolutetly wonderful. There is this one song, called Taken, he wrote about his wife and how she is a taken girl. Looooove. He is a music student at BYU, so you know he's got the real talent and technique behind his music. 

 We got to go to his latest album release at Velour music gallery. Check him out on youtube or facebook! Really, he's great.

Just think, someday (with Manny's help) Caleb might be as huge as Imagine Dragons or Neon Trees, and you can say you discovered him first. Who of us doesn't have an inner hipster that wouldn't love to be in on that? ;)

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XCountry

 So, if you've ever had the unfortunate experience of hitting the slopes with me, you'll know I'm uncannily uncoordinated when it comes to downhill winter sports. Wakeboarding? No problem! Long boarding? Love it. Even mountain biking comes naturally. But skiing down a mountain? No. Nope. Sorry. Does not compute. I wasn't bestowed that desire (death-wish.) No. But this past weekend I found myself strapping sticks to my feet once again. The difference? No imminent death was threatening. This was actually quite nice. Cross country skiing, where have you been all my life? Just like hiking. Or running! Maybe that's why i like it. And you get fun little bursts of speeds after working up a hill. Nice. And the ratio of my falling versus my actual upright movement is much more impressive then my downhill skiing track record.

I was actually able to enjoy the lovely scenery, too.

 

 Brandon and Steph. Steph-a-noodle was rocking an 80s vibe with her overalls and sweater. Lurv

 Silly phone being blurry. But I kinda love the effect

 

Kev and Bray rockin the sunglasses they found in the suburban

 

Daniel. I couldn't get a decent picture of this hooligan because he was always either miles ahead, or miles behind. He would fall and just lay there. They get up and leave us all in the dust.

Like I said. Hooligan

Happy happy, pretty pretty.

 

Seriously this chick. And people say she's just like me? Come on now

My family takes the grand prize. Always. The best part of the picture is Daniel trying to smile at the camera but being denied by his hood.

I really hope he hasn't discovered my blog yet

Sooo, at the risk of sharing prematurly, I just want to say...I met someone. Someone not like the 15,000 other boys I've been dating recently. (I really don't mean that to be cocky. It's just like, after everything fell apart with missionary I realized there  were a million boys around looking for someone just as hard as I now was. This is Provo, for Pete's sake. Dates are a dime a dozen.) For the first time I'm going about dating as i should be, with my eyes wide open and emotions on hold for the beginnings. Emotions are what got me attached and in trouble before. So this time I'm being prayerful and thoughtful about the stranger across the Vietnamese cafe table from me.  My list for a guy is simple:

-Worthy priesthood holder, and all that that entails
-Kind and forgiving
-Driven and a hard worker
-Funny:)
-We make each other want to be better

But, of course, there also needs to be that initial spark of chemistry. It's been a little tricky trying to find all these things in one guy. Not to mention that he had to be interested in me, too. Errrr.

For a while I felt like I could only find people a little beneath my level or way out of my reach. Was there no one on my plane? Was I setting unrealistic expectations? Or was there no one with the qualities that I wanted who would want me back? I thought about just going for people out of my league anyway, as they were the keepers. But I couldn't get over the feelings of intimidation; I couldn't be myself.

Then I met this boy, and remembered what it feels like to be compatible. We have too many things in common, it's almost disconcerting haha. We love the same flavor at Coldstone, never getting anything else. We've both read some of the nerdiest books on the planet. We love the same old school artists and get a little geeky when we talk lyrics and music. He asks all the silly questions that I usually ask when trying to get to know someone. And let me tell you, I'm sorry to all the guys I've dated and sprung these questions on, they're tricky! In any case, me and this kid just fit. In a way that I haven't felt in....never. Quite honestly he wins. Even from just these first few dates I feel I fit closer with this guy then I ever did with missionary.

Bonding over Wheel of Time, who knew? Thank you Robert Jordan

I think I just wanted it so bad with missionary, I was willing to pretend a little here and stretch a little there. Maybe I forced the compatibility. But it was so long ago, who can know. I don't want to discount what I had with missionary, as it was lovely (even if it is horrendous now.) I just want to emphasize how good it is with this new guy. Not having to try too hard. Not being bored, but not feeling like he's miles out of my league.

Don't get me wrong. New guy is still amazing and I look up to him and what he does quite a bit. And he really encourages me to be better as well. It's just comfortable though, not a strain. It feels right.

Anyways, it's still the very beginning of whatever this will be. Heck, he could turn out to be a crazy person, obsessed with collecting scissors and keeping flying squirrels as friends. I don't know where this will go. My point is that, there is compatibility out there. There are guys worth finding. And just because it's taking you years to find him, or her, doesn't mean it's an impossible feat. There is nothing wrong with you. You are you, and there is someone who will fit with you. With every date you get that much closer. Stick to your guns, don't compromise on the important things on your list, and live your life worthy of someone that you want. And I promise you'll find him.

That being said, it's been too long since someone instilled butterflies in my tummy. I really hope this does go somewhere. But I'm not rushing into anything. Whatever it is, it will be built to last.

You are enough

And you're going to find him

No such thing as selective vulnerability

Watched it once, watched it twice. I'm still sorting out my thoughts from it. But I want everyone to watch this. She is an eloquent, yet colloquial speaker. And I don't think you can help but recognize yourself in what she describes. 

"What makes you vulnerable, makes you beautiful"

Say you'll come, and set me free

Love this. It's one of those songs that just brings you peace and uplifts and feels melancholy and exciting all at the same time. Bless you Coldplay, what would we do without you? 

I used to sing this thinking of my silly missionary boy. Now I sing it with a little more weight thinking of the man I'll marry someday. Not knowing him yet is just a hiccup ;)

 I wonder if I already know him. And we're just waiting for each other. 

moooo

The other day I drove by some cows and thought, "I kinda want to go play with those." And then on the way back I saw them again and had the same urge. Sooooo I dragged TJ with me and tried to make some cow friends

How cute are they? I'd guess they were probably just a year old. They were still pretty little and fluffy

And verrrrrrry scared of us. This was about as close as we ever got. So much for making friends

 

And still I tried so hard

All In all though, it was a pretty day.

We even drove with the windows down.

Nerrrrrd

We've all "googled" ourselves. But since installing Window's 8, and working with my new windows phone, I've gotten in the habit of "binging" things. and so I decided to bing myself. That sounds weird. Anyways. I discovered this.

http://www.heraldextra.com/news/local/girls-compete-for-highland-junior-miss/article_0e30ab5f-7c92-5203-a291-163cee2350ac.html

An article about Jr. Miss! haha

"Suzie Fluckiger attends Lone Peak High School and is the daughter of Larry and Janeen Fluckiger. She will perform a piano solo by Muezynsk for her talent. She plans on attending BYU and hopes to become a pediatrician, astronaut, lawyer or photographer. She has been on the high honor roll and the senior student council, was Girls State mayor, teaches piano and belongs to the Chamber Choir."

Woooooow. Throwback. Astronaut? I put that in my blurb for a beauty pageant? Land sakes.

 

I can't find any pictures of my pageant on this computer, and I refused to put any on facebook haha (at least I had that much sense) so I settled on this one from my darling Shanelly's Jr. Miss. We were all participants in our years. Such a silly thing, but we all won scholarship money and, although we wouldn't admit it then, had some fun. What girl doesn't want to put on a dress and show off a little?


Also, something great to share with you all. I love doing graphic design. It's so much fun, and such a valuable skill. I've used it so much for work and school. Don't tell anyone, but I also tinker around on it in my evenings sometimes instead of playing with people. Risking getting called a nerd by TJ but it's fine. Anyways, my daddy (a programmer at Microsoft, so you can trust him) told me about this freeware program: Paint.net. It's similar to some adobe programs, and really is quite decent. There are lots of add-ons too, so you can probably find whatever it is you need.
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Please judge me later, but here is a bit of airbrushing I've been learning. Grrrrrrrrt fun

 

 

I also learned how to make fire from nothing. Yeah probably not that impressive, but I love it.

 

xx