zzzzzzzless

what do you do when you can't sleep? i never have this problem, i'm a baby and my day usually wears me out. but there's so much change and strange that brings up old memories and worries happening lately. i'm so excited to move home, but the move is stressing me. i don't know why, it's not that big of a deal.
don't you hate when you have your plan and you know that everything will most likely work out, but for the moment you have tunnel vision and everything seems fragile? one time i had a lovely night planned, out to a drive-in movie and ice cream. but on the way i got a ticket. and that's no big except that was one too many on my record and my license was going to be revoked and then i didn't know how i was going to get to work and then how was i going to make any money and then how was i going to go to school and get anywhere in life? it was all so pathetique. and  it was one of those transitory stages of life. i think change just shakes me. anyway  i bawled like a baby all night instead, unable to handle. but the next day i woke up and realize that i was still alive. and i still had the most important people to me close at hand. and things worked out, just like they always do.

illness: changeafobia
cure: waking up to a new morning
predicament: falling asleep

i'll pop in breakfast at tiffany's and hope for the best.
xoxox